March 2010

March 6, 2010

Well, it's just 6 days till my birthday.  It will be another sucky one.  I still have not found a job.  I mean, I'm not even getting any phone calls.  I had ONE interview in February!!  It's as if I have been black balled and everyone has a copy of my resume and my picture with an alert saying "don't hire her"!!  I mean, what the F*ck is going on??  This is the longest I have ever been unemployed.  I mean, I've been unemployed before, but never for this long.  It's going on 6 months the 17th of March.

Hiro and I just got back from walking to Lincoln Park and back, when we got in he started hopping around like his back paw is hurt.  Licking it, acting like he's in distress.  I washed all his paws and tried to put peroxide on it, but he won't let me look.  He isn't bleeding, and I don't see a sign of blood.  I pressed on his foot and he didn't wimper..... that is all I need is another vet bill.

The weather is nice today, it's sunny, the sky is blue and the temperature is 55 degrees!!  I only had a hoodie on and a light weight scarf.  I have 3 windows open b/c it's too warm in here and of course my landlord never fixed me heat so I can control it.

Ruth, Porsha and Franky have all offered to take me out for my birthday, and while I totally appreciate it, I don't want to go.  Makes me feel worse to not have any money or not be able to participate in any holiday or celebration.

I miss my Mom so much and want to see her so bad.  I thank God every day for getting her one more day.  I've lost a whole year without her.  And for that I will always feel guilty.  Well, I am gonna browse the internet awhile then do a little cleaning before I make dinner.

Oh, I fee so inspired by the movie Julie & Julia.  I think I'm gonna see about going to culinary school.  And my goal is to stay motivated to walk to Lincoln Park everyday, if the weather will permit me to.

Let's see if I can make it!