So as most of my very close friends know, I have had very bad periods for awhile now. Recently within the past few years they were just getting worse, but because I have not had insurance since about 2006, I just dealt with it. This past year it dramatically got worse, with December '09 being the worst ever. I finally got into a clinic in my neighborhood (that I didn't know existed) and find out that I have a growth attached to my cervix. She said it was a polyp, and that it was "very" big. She told me to see the specialist asap and that if I started having any problems between now and then to go to the ER.
Needless to say I am scared shitless. I have been laid off for the past 3 months going on 4, still have no insurance and I am by myself. No boyfriend, no family... and few good friends that live here. I have never had surgery before. I'm scared it might be cancerous. I can't believe that this could possibly the the last curtain call for me.
I have a couple friends that said they would be with me on the day of the surgery, so we will see when that day comes. Then I am probably gonna need more help. Cooking, cleaning, groceries, etc.
I have never in my life felt more depressed, scared, worthless, unloved and alone in all my life.
Doctor appointment is Friday at 2:30, so I have 3 days left.
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